She lies upon a smooth careless table, lost amidst the wan cascading linen folds. My hand wanders among the alabaster locks seeking comfort in her late embrace, but finds naught.
She whispers in broken rasps, a prisoner strangled from within.
"Who...?"
Again she gasps past her pale waning lips, the sound of sand rushing over skin.
Could I feign disregard and ignorance, restfully acquiescing to the pull of time?
"The pull of time" I thought, such a gentle phrase.
My mind poses innocent thoughts guised as hope, wolves waiting at the door. I terrify myself, I'm capable of
that?
Every want, every selfish fiber sown and intertwined with who I am, tears against what I
know is right.
But, can I yet again draw up sufficient strength to confess who
we are? Who we
were? Today, in this moment,
could I again spit acid truth into her face and allow the toll be taken?
If I survive today, what of tomorrow, and tomorrow's inevitable arrival?
A faint procession ushers out the warmth from under her tender beige skin, utterances of beauty lingering behind grey curtains, fluttering nearly unnoticeably.
As once one, now disavowed -- despite all my striving, innocence inevitably spites every bead of sweat birthed by hope.
At the hands of my emotions, sweat beads, gather and roll across and down my face. The unsettling silence announces my strain, dripping and puddling onto the laminate tiles.
Jogged back, my lips thinning, running along them an unnoticeable quiver.
"Paul?"
"I--, I'm."
Bruised shadows wrap around her hands, once whole but now reduced, former joys lost.
My palpitating heart wildly rises in my throat, binding fistfuls of knotted muscle, set to burning. I silently scream, my hands quaking, struggling, chained by futility. I'm nothing but a witness to her molestation.