Joy Wait

Oh joy to be,
Will you come to me soon?
Or will you stay away,
I lie awake, thoughts about such things come to mind,
Oh happiness,
It could be better with you at my side,
The thought of you has kept me alive,
Do you notice the stress, when you’re not here that I express?
Oh patience,
Waiting is something I’ve gotten good at,
Though at times you still tug at my shirt, or you tug at my mind,
Delicate matters I ponder,
When I think, I know once again, it will be a long time,
Maybe never, due to my inadequacies,
Will you see me fit?
Or will you just pass and spit,
Oh worry,
I know not to,
Harder to say not to than do,
Maturity and adulthood are coming slowly,
You might not come because I can’t handle life,
I will handle it someday, life will cower before this man,
This man will make his dying day stand,
I will make my stand for possession,
Oh coming,
I see you walking,
Someday I will master this life,
I have to wait for joy,
Oh happiness.